10 down!

So I took dear Erin's pre-op (madness) diet and tweaked it a bit for me. I have been using a low carb and low sugar protein shake in the morning, a few hours later I have yogurt and fruit, lunch is tuna w/light (1 tbsp) mayo no bread and water, few hours later more fruit then I have a light dinner. I use serving sizes, yes the actual cup or half cup serving and oz. of meat. No fried stuff for the last week. Guess what! Yeah I lost 10lbs. in the last 9 days! I am finally back below 200lbs. I am hoping that I can stay on it because it is hard. I swear I hear voices from my cupboards at night taunting me! Maybe it is a state of delirium from the lack of sugar.

Awesome, yet sad...

Today I slept in till 10:45a.m. When I got up I had to pray immediately. I am sure I prayed for at least 30 minutes. It was as if the Holy Spirit itself was speaking to me and I was singing and crying. To some they may think this is a psychotic episode. Those are the ones that I am praying for daily. It is an awesome feeling when God fills your heart and soul and you feel so happy all you can do is cry.

So I took mom up to Darcie's church. I would love to call this church my home. I love the feeling of when I walk through the door. It is as if God is whispering in my soul. Tonight I got to hear Martha speak. She is the pastor's wife. Her message was so moving and she read Ephesians 5:15 So be careful how you live. Don't live like fools, but like those who are wise.16 Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days. Martha had a list of things she was no longer going to waist time doing. So I have been praying about what I should make a list of. Here it is:
I will no longer waist time....
1. laying in bed. This is going to be a tough one. But my the need to accomplish something will help get my butt up and going.
2. sweating the small stuff.( one of Martha's)
3. of my childrens. They are growing up so fast. i am vowing to make the most of their child hood and make lots of great memories for them. I am going to be an example for their walk with God as well.
4. telling the people I love, I love them. (Yes, Darcie this means you!) As Martha was reading this one Darcie turns to Sarah and then to I and says hey, Martha loves you. Saying the words can be hard. Actions are words too.

So for now this is a start.

Wow!

O.K. So it is almost nine and I am not hungry. This is the first time in a long time that I can remember that I haven't been hungry by this time. I think I might be able to not snack tonight! Wish me luck! Also, A big high five to E for sticking it out today!

Why do I do it?

I lay here night after night and want to eat. This is so depressing. I know I shouldn't and yet, I will get up and eat a bowl of cereal or a sandwich I don't eat very much during the day. I am not an unhappy person. I love my life God has blessed me with. I have 2 beautiful girls and a huge family full of my "other" kids. Well, maybe I will get stronger and not want to eat tomorrow night.