Who am I living for?

      So, I have been having this long hard look at my life. For the last 13 years I have been in mom mode. Which it rightly should be. My girls have been everything to me. Even when I was in my craziest times, they are everything to me. This thing going on with my husband has drug me down. My soul feels barren of lite. I feel as if I am fighting from going in robot mode. Believe me when I say that I have lost who I am. I feel no power over my own feelings or dreams or even what I do on a daily basis. What do I want to do today?