Well, since 2013, things have gone up and down. Rafa and I got divorced November 12, 2014. There was so much in between us that we could not communicate. Not that it was his strong suit at all. After months of only being home 3 or 4 days, I was done. I could not get over the feeling he had met someone else. Mexico was more important than being home with me and helping me with the daily life things. Now he is remarried to a woman in Mexico and is raising her son. He still lives in Oklahoma. We talk every now and then. I let Nellie go to Mexico this Christmas so she can spend time with her family. It was hard.
After the divorce, there was nothing left for me in Oklahoma except heart break, lies, and debt. I had no focus or goals. Nothing to define "ME" as a person. I love my girls and have gave every minute of my life for them since they were born. This is where the problem lies. They grow and leave. What was I going to do when Nellie was gone in 4 years? I had tried going to school numerous times. Turns out, Kareena saw this as abandoning her and her sister to selfishly pursue my own interest. So I lack 500hrs from a cosmetology license and 6 classes from my associates degree in science. I decided, I am moving home to Florida! So, May of 2015 Rafa packed us up and loaded up kids and I loaded up kids in my car and we traveled south to Pensacola. Rafa stayed 1 week with the girls and helped unload the trailer into a storage unit. Roy, Perla, Esme, and Kareena's boyfriend Ivan all came too. So they all had one last great summer together. Ivan was scumbag of course. First boyfriends always are.
The purpose of the move was to start over. Samantha, my long time bestfriend, needed me. She was going through a rough time. Adam had started a business of installing and repair of boat lifts and dock needs. We were finally going to live our dream! Run our own company make money! Then the lawsuit happend from an ex employer who had a plan to wipe Adam out. First he got to the contractors we worked with. Then Adam had to start paying the lawyer. Every time he turned around that schmuck was there. It hurt the business, Then while installing a lift one day, I fell off the side of the barge. Hit my side and damaged my liver, spleen, and portal vein. Not knowing the extent, I kept working till the work was fading. I needed to have a steady income. So I went and worked at GE. It was there that my life trully changed.
After 1 week of training we were placed on shift. I remember the first time he walked past me. Blue eyes, red beard, sharp nose, and a big grin. I was floored right there. Sean Smith. I was going to have him one way or another. But, me and my work morals being never date a co worker, put that in a tough spot. Till my liver decided to say "Hey! Remember me? You knocked the hell out of me and then just walked on like it didn't happen? Yeah, guess what, I'm goign to try and kill you know. " SO I ended up in the hospital. Then because I didnt want to lose my job, I took the lay off they were asking for volunteers. It was then, I decided to pursue him. Best damn decision I have evr made!
Sean has been there for me for some pretty scary and heavy things. Kareena leaving for Oklahoma and not coming back. Quitting my job at GE because of a lying snake who eventually got her come upings. He quit drinking, I quit smoking, I do not gamble, I do not drink alcohol. His family has welcomed me with such open arms. All of them. Now, he welcomed my own birth mom to live with us as long as she can. Donna is in end stages of COPD/CHF Emphasema. She has been with us 1 month and has declined so much that she can not stand on her own. I am trying to get her medicaid set so that she can be moved to an assisted living center just 5 minutes away. I could stop to see her on the way home from picking Nellie up everyday. She is ready for this step too. We both had hoped for her to be here a bit longer. She will stay as long as she can.
So now, here I am, a Licensed Real Estate Agent with Century 21 AmeriSouth Realty. My business is growing so quickly it is hard to keep up! I am learning so many new techniques to marketing and growing my business. I have finally found my place in this life. Nellie just went last night to a opening ceremony at the Art Museum where one of her art pieces is being shown! She has grown into a great person. She has become more loving and happy since the move here. She is straight A student with so much talent. I can not wait to see where she goes and what she does with this life.
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